So much work, so little enthusiasm. It comes in bursts and then fizzles out. I am quite run down, ill. It should be a good excuse, all it really means is that I potter about doing this and that and moan a little about the dizzy spells, the sweats and the sore throat.
The drawing day at the old college was good. We smothered the wall in MTS imagery in a good time, set up the digital projector and had it looked over by the first year students who have to do something similar next week with found images. I might pop in to see what they come up with.
We are part of a group now. A local mill, the venue for HOST back in November and a place that has resident artists in studios, has offered the six of us the use of a whole floor for a show. Initially it will be our six and if goes well, it might be the first of regular shows. The mill owner is enthusiastic and we have ideas and the two things combined is a lethal one. Mingling in the local scene is not something I do very often. Like a fool, I have signed up for another local initiative, closer to home. A whole section of Wakefield is being transformed into a cultural quarter and there is a get together and workshop. They even supply a boxed canvas to take home and work on (responses to the day) and when returned it is exhibited. I am becoming a slag.
Art and Science, discuss. When did they drift away from each other and settle into different mind sets? Is the fact that they are seen so independently of one another part of the problem in resolving the big issues of our time? School, education in general, must have a large part of play in fixing this notion that if you do art, you can’t do science. Choose. We always have to choose. I have written before of my belief that education should be a thing that is whole. Offered to students ‘in the round’. It might be easier for people in their early twenties with no life experience to teach a subject in neat little packages, clearly defined and isolated but we don’t experience life in that way. Geography, language, art, and history and so on all overlap and inform together. Education should be like this, as inspiring and vital as real life. Fuck bits of paper. All right, maybe a piece of paper that states you can read that piece of paper, and add up a bit, just to make life easier for future employers. And school is very little other than a training ground, an indoctrination centre for a life of employment. Turn up on time, do as you are told, eat when we say so, try your best and here is your reward. School ought to be the first stage on a life journey of the absorption of information, the gathering of enthusiastic minds who set the purpose themselves, free of all expectation. After school, more school at a higher level or maybe you saunter, asking questions and trying to find solutions. Maybe you work because you want to, some people like to work. Some people like to study and probe and wonder.
And in this utopia, art and science would co-exist, happily. I think they deal with the same big issues. Generative art is almost like a study of nature. I am glossing over here. Mostly because I am still ill and always unsure of my thought processes; nature is the ultimate generative artist. Science tries to offer one solution to the question of why we are here, less spiritual on the face of it perhaps. I think that if we are the product of random cosmic events, right time right place and so on, it is all the more justification to make artwork and enjoy life and fuck the employer. We advance but we don’t take advantage of it to make our lives more free. We can’t probably because we are encouraged to work, to fit in, to provide something for society which is exactly what I am saying but you provide something else for society other than products and base needs; you offer time, love, passion, invention, and play.
Free for all. Everything should be free. No money or weird bartering system, just free. If everyone does enough of their bit, we all get what we need. And tolerance, we need to accept that some people won’t or can’t ‘pull their weight’ rather than get uptight and vindictive about it. The majority will do. I don’t think we have to abolish products and other ‘trappings’ of mass culture but perhaps we need to shift the emphasis and we ought to get rid of the money making bastards that stand at the top of the pile. Unless they will work for free and make other adjustments. Perhaps we have to accept that some choices are bad. For everyone. We can make big shitty car engines or small ones that are less damaging. If we try to remove status and wealth and level things off, there would be little need for the big engine. End the madness. Ok, you are still the ‘boss’ of the company that exists in this new world of free for all, fine, have that status but you can’t have the big car with the big engine. You have to ride the bicycle to ‘work’ (we need a new word for it) and find another way to feel good about yourself. Being generous with your time, perhaps? Making the tea. Offering to landscape the local park, go on, something like that, something worthwhile and mildly altruistic and we promise to make a fuss about it, help your self esteem.
Perhaps science involves more ‘art’, more creativity than I know. I would hope so. I’m not sure ‘art’ looks to science for anything, most of the time. I find maths equations beautiful as drawings. They mean nothing to me as maths, but visually they are wonderful. Who is working on a clean engine? Is anyone? What drives new science? Money? Drugs companies….too simplistic. There must be people out there who are creative thinkers with the science knowledge. I think it is too late to ban personal transport, people like it. We do need to look at making it less damaging in all ways. A good start would be the engine. I once had a wet dream about a new engine and it is something that obsesses me. I read many years ago that a new engine had been invented and squashed by the oil barons. It ran on trash, something like the time circuit in ‘Back to the Future II’. It might have been a myth, some joke article that as a romantic young fool I took seriously. There is money to be made in conversion and parts, come on you capitalist bastards. So can it be done? Is there a clean engine? My non-science idea was for an engine that somehow, and the somehow is the key missing bit, used carbon dioxide as a fuel, leaving water and air as the toxic waste. I know, idealistic, based on nothing. I had a vision of starving kids following this new car around with a bowl. Precious water, thank you Mr. West and air, oh, such pure air! Is nuclear out? Some kind of mini-reactor? I am throwing ideas into the pot, come on. I am trying. I can draw it for you; does that make it more real?